by Austin Alexander | Sep 12, 2018 | Anxiety, Fear, Life
I can’t smoke your weed My ego won’t let me. You’ve never had to compensate for anything real. You’re so bland and beautiful. I want the real thing No more smoke screens You’re trying to smash a spider with a sledgehammer. A life of chaos...
by Austin Alexander | Jul 5, 2017 | Art, Artist, Fear, Poetry
I have not wandered Into that vast expanse So blue and deep Disappearing into an invisible infinity. I’m not the warrior Who’d risk such a feat To wander into treachery Surrounded by an army of Unknown foes. That place is for them I’ve only seen it...
by Austin Alexander | Aug 25, 2016 | Action, Conversation, Ego, Fear, healthy
I have wanted to start writing on this blog again since I stopped, but I’ve let a lot of things get in my way. Mostly myself. I created an endless string of reasons to procrastinate including: Why I shouldn’t restart Why I needed to wait I would have to...
by Austin Alexander | Mar 29, 2016 | Anxiety, Ego, faith, Fear, Life, Time, Vice
Vices come in all forms. Substances, people, things, and attitudes. Having an obsession over something that provides you with temporary relief is a very subtle foe to combat. I’ve realized with a little time in sobriety, the subtlety of obsessing can be a deep and...
by Austin Alexander | Mar 26, 2016 | Ego, Fear, humanity, Life, Vice
Crippling self doubt has not just plagued me, I have repeatedly indulged in it. It is a place of self-deprecatory comfort. I take solace in believing that I’ll fail. Why? Because it’s easier to believe I won’t succeed, and follow through with...
by Austin Alexander | Mar 24, 2016 | Art, Culture, Fear, Vice
The Netflix binge to me is one of our generations prime examples of “I want what I want when I want it…now gimme”. Our whole society is based around instant gratification, that’s nothing new. I think the understated issue is that we have become...